Living & Doing
If you enjoy my personal life posts, then here is a little update for you!
It is only April, but this year has been a quick and curvy roller-coaster. If you follow me on social media, you may know that I have been closed for much of this year because of some sudden and crazy health issues that came up at the end of January. Long story short (and without gory details), I woke up with severe vertigo in the middle of the night and was hospitalized for a couple of days following. I was later diagnosed with viral labyrinthitis (a very rare condition that effects less than 5% of the US population every year) which came from a common cold virus, and have permanently lost about 30% of my hearing in my left ear as a result.
After learning about the human ear for the past couple of months, I can confidently tell you that it is an organ that we - as all humans - should never take for granted. The inflammation of my labyrinth caused significant issues with my balance as well, and I was unable to do normal things - like sit up, stand, walk, etc. Fast forward to almost three months later, I am probably 98% recovered and only notice very slight issues with dizziness with very specific head movements (yay!).
While this has been the worst medical and emergency issue I have ever had, it has also been an incredible learning experience. I have never felt so out of control and awful in my entire life, and feel very fortunate that I was able to recover most of my hearing and that I am back to functioning almost like I could before. There is nothing like being almost 100% dependent on other people to make you realize how much you take for granted - and for me at the time, it felt like an awful lot.
I also have to say that, when I was in the thick of my medical issues, the couples I was working with were so, so incredible. I cannot thank them enough for their flexibility, care, and support when we had to change their order or finding another vendor to fill my place because we didn’t know what this was or how long this would play out. I feel so lucky to work with the best couples and kindest people. They showed me so much grace, and it was a meaningful lesson in being more flexible with myself. We so often hold ourselves to impossible standards and say things to ourselves that we would never say to anyone else, and it is so important to remember to show the same compassion and grace to ourselves that we do for those we care about.
After taking so much time to recover and experiencing what it is like to lose so much control, my primary focus these days has just been living. Like, actively living. At the beginning of this year, I wrote a post about practicing intention and how I was making a conscious effort to take better care of myself. What I meant (without realizing it) was that I wanted to make a more conscious effort to live life more fully. I’m trying not to speed to the weekend (although I do love and savor every day off) anymore and am making Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday days to look forward to and have fun! I’ve reopened Letters from Lindsey and I can’t tell you how great it has been to stretch creative muscles and connect with couples again :)
My second focus has been dreaming and doing. I spent a lot of time laying still and reflecting since I could not do much else and started to think about the things I could/would do if I weren’t in such a bad way. I am celebrating my golden birthday this year (29!) and started thinking about what I want to do to commemorate it since I have had to wait so long! My husband and I have been dreaming of traveling, and I realized that we don’t need to dream anymore - we are at the point in life where we can totally make this happen and take some actions to make it our reality! We are in the process of planning a little European tour for two weeks later this year and cannot wait!
I hope this inspires a little living and action in your own life!
Cheers to ending the year in good health!